TCA Peel Process and Results

DISCLAIMER: I AM NOT A PROFESSIONAL, I am just simply recording a risk I took and my experience.

Why? Well, I had a 25% TCA peel kit from years ago that I used to treat a scar left behind by my dermatitis. I thought I’d try it to remove some minor acne scars, using it like a spot treatment, and so I did.

How? (The process): The package contains a pre-peel, that can be substituted with wiping your face with a alcohol pad before applying the peel, the peel and the neutralizing solution that can be substituted by a mixture of baking soda and water. I first soaked a cotton pad with the pre- peel solution and applied directly to the areas I planned to apply the peel. It burned a little but this process is necessary in making sure the area you are applying the peel is clean, free of dirt and oils so the peel can penetrate deeper and more evenly. I then spritz some of the TCA 25 peel solution on a different cotton pad and applied it to those areas as well. It immediately started to burn, I went to my window, to neutralize the burn with cold air from outside, I still wasn’t able to bare it so I neutralized my face and washed it with cool water. I later felt as though, it didn’t work because of the short time I left it on, and did it again, this time I was able to bear it and left it on for a total of 5 minutes. I neutralized it and then washed my face with cool water. Make sure nothing gets in your eye, at all, or you will have a huge problem. The next day, my skin looked a bit darkened, shiny and wrinkled, I knew it was preparing to peel. 2 days later, I noticed peeling. It did not peel in sheets, the peel was sort of scattered and I read that it is detrimental to assist in the peeling, making it hard to go to classes, work, etc. It was suggested I wore sunscreen and stayed out the sun, I had no sunscreen and I had places to go, so I wore a hat and tried to avoid the sun as much as I could, but I definitely was exposed to a good amount and I was okay, though I don’t suggest you do it.

What (The results):
Was it worth it?
It was not worth it, I looked crazy for over a week, the results weren’t noticeable at all and it revealed the skin that was there before.
Would I do it again?
Yes, but this time I would go to a professional and get a stronger, deeper peel.
Any scarring?
No more scarring that I had prior.
Did I get burned?
Not that I can see as yet, but my skin is very resistant so I highly doubt it.
Would I suggest for you to do it?
It’s up to you, I already have pretty decent skin and the results were barely noticeable.

And yes, I heard stronger peels aren’t ideal for people of color but I took the risk and was okay.

BEFORE, DURING AND AFTER PICTURES COMING SOON!!!!

“I’d Never Ask My Guy About Another Woman, Unless I Was Prepared To Leave Him.”

So, I recently saw a video with the Braxton sisters discussing cheating and advice their mother, Evelyn Braxton, gave them in regards to dealing with those situations. “Never ask a guy about another woman, unless you were prepared to leave him, or you becime the side chick.” And, I couldn’t agree more.

Why ask your man about another woman, if you are not prepared to let him go. Once you make him aware that you’re aware that he’s being unfaithful, arguing with him about it but still staying with him, lets him know that you are OK with it and that if you’re not, you’re not going to do anything about it. This promotes the behavior. I’m not saying to be oblivious to the fact that your man is being unfaithful at all, I’m saying that, if you are going to let him know that you know he’s cheating, to preserve your self respect and how he views you, you have to leave.

Why even bring anything up, if you plan on staying? What’s the purpose? You hope by bringing it up, he’ll change. Firstly, I think if a man cheats on one woman, once, he’ll continue to cheat on that woman. So, not only do I think you are SADLY mistaken, you have to leave for him to even begin consider not doing it again.

If you stay, you’re letting him know that, regardless of what he does, you’ll always be around and you never want to give a dude the satisfaction of knowing that. Because that’s when he starts treating youuuu, like the sidechick.

Top 10 Relationship DEAL BREAKERS!

1. A guy who disrespects his mom and/or sister in the worst possible scenario. She could’ve stole his car and trashed it.  How you speak to her in that scenario tells me how you’ll treat me if I ever did something you didn’t like.

2. A man who’s rude to the waiter, or strangers or the less fortunate. MAJOR DUB!

3. A guy who is overly insecure/overly obnoxious.

4. He called/calls me a bitch. ***CALLED… you only get one chance to call me that and that’s it!

5. A guy who only has me in his corner. That’s a lot of pressure and I got my own problems.

6. He lacks ambition. I can’t stand a lazy guy or one who is content with being mediocre. You should always be working towards a goal. When you achieve one, it’s time to work towards another. I don’t like complacency.

7. A guy who is allergic to everything. Listen, I’m a foodie. I’d love to cook for the guy that I’m with, so if you’re allergic/don’t like all of my favorites, we simply will not work out.

8. An intensely ‘traditional’ guy. This ties in with the domestic emotional and physical abuse. Because that stems from patriarchal ideals. Not happening. No, I won’t be a house wife, and no, you cannot treat me any way you want.

9. A guy who does not want kids. I might not be the most affectionate person ever but I want kids, ok!

10. He smokes cigarettes or dies drugs. NOOOOO BABYYYYYYY! Not happening. Their is no such thing as a social crack addict. Miss me with the bullshit!

NEOSPORIN allergic reaction

I previously wrote a post about using a Neosporin to soften my lips, after many users vouched for it. What a BIG MISTAKE?

About 3 days after using Neosporin on my lips daily, I noticed some bumps appearing on  my lips, nothing too major.

I didn’t link Neosporin to the rash immediately so I continued to use it. Eventually, I stopped with the idea that maybe I misused the product and that it wasn’t suitable to be used on lips at all. So I stopped.

Maybe 2-3 weeks ago, I went to get my eyebrows done. My skin is semi-sensitive, it rarely ever break out but I get rashes so very easily, never as severe as this one but my skin reacts to fabric, environmental change, just everything. These reactions though, are usually very minor and could only be seen by me or felt to the touch. Anyways, I’ve had a slight breakout to the wax used \, so the Chinese lady suggested I used Neosporin. She pushed it on me and was like “use, use!” And so I did. I plasted it everywhere, around my eyebrows and even on my forehead, repeatedly.

Why did I do that?

3 days after I used Neosporin on my eyebrows, the break out took effect.

img_1695You can’t see it too good in this photo but it was horrible, very visible and pink. I’m dark asf, so if a rash is visibly pink on my forehead, something is wrong.

 

Moral of the story, understand that everyone’s skin isn’t yours. Take advice with a grain of salt. Be careful and LISTEN TO YOUR SKIN.

I don’t know exactly what ingredient in the Neosporin, I’m allergic to. But I’d never use this product or any product with similar active ingredients, ever again.

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Before and After

My skin cleared up with use of Calamine lotion and another rash cream my friend gave me. But I did acquire a few acne marks due to the incident, which sucks but I’m not complaining,

Unpopular Opinion: Why “Transgenderism” isn’t considered a mental disorder but dissociative personality disorder is.

“For as long as I can remember, I always felt like a boy. I know I have a vagina but I just never felt like a girl.

So, you were born with a vagina, but you FEEL that you’re a boy.

So, you were born with a penis, but you FEEL like a girl.

People who have dissociative personality disorders are proven to genuinely be unaware of their different personalities. For example,  if a person has 5 different personalities, there’s usually 1 personality that knows about all the other 4 but their main personality (the one that existed before the other personalities emerged, or the primary personality) is usually unaware of the other 4. They just know that they escape time and that sometimes people bring up events they’ve seen them at, that they don’t recall ever going to, so they know something is wrong but they don’t know what it is. But the therapist does. The therapist is able to bring out all the different people that exist within a dissociative personality disorder patient’s head and talk to them individually. So they know this is real, they are licensed to know exactly what is going on. With a transgender, you really don’t know how they feel, because it is a feeling, it’s personal to them, as a therapist, you can’t draw out those feelings like you can  mental disorders. SO how do we know it’s real?

And again, I’m not saying it’s not cause I think it’s very possible. Just like I believe having multiple personalities is very possible. But who are we to say that one thing (transgender) that we can’t necessarily prove has more ground over something (dissociative disorder) that we can. Who are we to determine what is recognized as a third gender and what is a mental disorder. I feel that we either come to the conclusion that both deserve their places in society or that they are both mental disorders. We can’t differentiate them in what we consider normal and abnormal. And if we chose to do that, we must favor the side that we can actually prove.

SO why don’t we acknowledge these different personalities as different people, why don’t they draw up different birth certificates when we realize they exist? Why don’t they do on separate interviews and why don’t we see them as completely different people?

But we acknowledge transgender as a third gender and we’ve integrated it into our society, why are other mental disorders considered mental illnesses then? Isn’t that a bit unfair?

If you feel like you are different from what you are, then that’s your business.

But if you’re going to add a new gender to society just to account for a portion of the population’s FEELINGS, other mental disorders should be accounted for as well and not considered mental illnesses.

P. S. If you have any opinions contrary to the opinion stated above, refer to the definition of mental disorder below, or google it.

Mental Disorder: Disorders that affect your mood, thinking and behavior

 

 

Re-growing Edges FAIL and Current Routine

I’ve come to the conclusion that NOTHING WORKS! I think that I have naturally thin edges and that there is not way to thicken them without changing my genetics.

Ofcourse I try to take care of them to prevent further thinning but I also use products and gels that contain alcohol, which can be harmful to your hair, especially to my already disappearing edges. I plan to stop doing that, just to see if there is any improvement but I can officially say that I’ve tried “Wild Growth Hair Oil” and was dedicated to the product for over 3 months and it does not thicken you edges. I can say however that I have been able to retain a little more length on them. They’re still THIN AS FUCK tho. So I’d advise against wasting your money and maybe go get a hair transplant if it’s that important to you.

But me, personally, I will be living with these edges for the rest of my life cause I’m broke asf.

I do not suggest using Gorilla Snot gel because it can be very drying, as it contains alcohol, you can use Ecostyler gel or whatever alcohol-free gel that works for you.

 

 

Why I hate FINAID OFFICE WORKERS!

I’m very passionate about school and it’s been drilled in me that in order to become successful, I have to go to school and get a degree.

That might just be bullshit.

I go to school and have to take out thousands of dollars in loans, in order to pay my bill. The financial aid office workers ARE ANGRY and ARE NOT THERE TO HELP YOU. They are apart of the problem. They have additional funds at their disposal and are given permission to use them if they deem necessary.

Here is how I know:

I applied for a school and was given a certain amount in financial aid, after a couple weeks the money that was previously given to me was withdrawn. I called to speak to the financial aid office to ask why the money was taken back and asked kindly if I can have it back. The financial aid woman told me, repeatedly, that they had run out of funds to give to students and they had absolutely no money left. I asked if there was someone else I could speak to and after days of being mislead, I got in contact with the financial aid office director. I told him about the situation and though he was very nice, he seemed like he did not want to be bothered. 2 minutes into the conversation, he gave me over $4,000 in aid, just like that. After the woman told me that they school was all out of aid and that there was absolutely nothing that could be done for me.

I have friends and family members who has had success begging and who’ve encouraged me to beg the financial aid office workers because they have more power than they let be known.

Financial aid reps are like customer service reps, and you must treat them as such. They purposely with-hold information about aid from you because THAT IS THEIR JOB. They are suppose to steer you in the direction of loans and debt, that’s the business, that’s the SCAM. And the funny thing is, giving out a little extra aid will not compromise their positions. It is a choice. I swear to you that they are given a certain amount of money they are able to disburse, at their own leisure, they just wont. You would think that the money is coming out of their own fucking pockets.

They are rude as fuck when you call. They answer the phone with an attitude like you’re the reason they didn’t finish college and have to work at one and cater to a bunch of college students. Like it’s your fault they don’t make as much as you want to and like it’s your fault they don’t like their fucking jobs.

I just feel that if you’re in a position to help people, you should do everything in your power to do that, ESPECIALLY if your job is not being compromised. I’m sure you understand what it’s like to be broke and desperate while trying to do the right thing. I’m not saying this is your fault because there are bigger forces at play here but you can make a difference and YOU’RE NOT DOING IT!!!

I know I can take out loans, baby, I know my options, I’ve done my research. I’ve taken out loans and I’m willing to take out more but I will not take out any UNSUB loans (loans where interest starts to build up the moment you take it out). I have AMAZING grades what continue to improve. I am DOUBLE MAJORING, I am involved in activities on campus, I cause absolutely NO TROUBLE; there must be SOMETHING you can do for me. For a lot of people.

I’d never understand how people with power to change lives can abuse it by being mean and selfish.

Don’t lose your empathy or your soul folks. A time will come where you’ll wish you weren’t dealing with someone like yourself.